One week

The previous 3 posts were from while Kokochi was down due to server issues. What timing! I was definitely very emotional the first few days home, and really needed to share. Now my hormones are stable and I'm more chill. But initially, I was overwhelmed with so many emotions - totally at awe at birth and meeting Tesla, physically exhausted and wondering how much my body could take, completely in love with Dav and appreciative at how he stepped up to do so much for me/us, mourning and missing my pregnant belly, processing the whole c-section ordeal, and just deeply grateful for every moment of this experience (no matter how tired I was).

We've achieved a rhythm of sorts - even though each day and night still brings new lessons and surprises - and we're settling into family home life. Tesla is one week old. And she is already changing and growing. She has more chubbiness, her hands are more coordinated, she stares longer, and she is experimenting more with different body movements. It's a pleasure on one hand to see changes everyday, but I also want to stop time. She's so precious and tiny! A friend with a 3 month old came by the other day, and I couldn't believe how big she was. I remember how tiny she was too when I saw her as a newborn. The biggest lesson so far is Letting Go. Life is flowing over us, and I'm super aware of its energy at the moment. I'm a part of it, but can't control or hold onto it. It goes...

Tesla has consistently given us about 5 hours of sleep each night...which is generous! I'm tired for sure, but this is doable. I'm getting the knack of breast feeding so the sometimes hourly suckling during the day is no longer a painful ordeal. The cats seem to more or less accept Tesla's presence and understand she is very important to us and won't be going away. They hang around us constantly to get any attention they can get, and I try to hug/pet them as often as I can. To me, they are handling this transition quite well, bless their little hearts.