a deeper feeling in my heart

Today, Tesla got vaccinated. After much thinking about all the issues involving vaccination, we decided it would be better to go through with it since we are traveling internationally very soon. It was not an easy decision nonetheless.

But what was most difficult by far was being there when little Tesla was poked three times by a needle. I have never felt the utter despair in my heart, deeply wanting to protect her and take any experience of pain away, yet not able to. The nurse asked me, "is mommy ready?" as I held Tes on my lap facing outward to the nurse. "Uh, no...." I felt like dashing out of the room holding Tes tight in my arms. I'm sure the nurse was used to all first time moms being uneasy, so she just went about her business in a calm and efficient manner.

I couldn't help it.
I cried when Tesla began to cry.
I came out of the office and called Dav.
I realized how much I love my little girl.