why I have zero memory

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People often ask me, "so how are you? how is it with a baby?" to which I often say, "I'm fine, it's fun!" That is entirely true. Except that my memory is noticeably diminished. It's subtle to the extent that I don't feel any different. But I simply don't remember things, as in social appointments I make or the words of things. And I'm conscious enough to know that I should know...so I am aware of this memory issue. It's constant enough that now I tell everyone, "call me if you don't hear from me" or "email me that cuz I'll forget."

Physically, I don't notice that I'm tired. Tesla has been a good sleeper and since she sleeps in our bed, feeding her at night is as simple as rolling over. However as Dav pointed out, I have not had a solid 8 hours since Tesla was born. It doesn't bother me, but he has a point.

For example, I usually get out of bed at a decent 7 or 8am hour (so I can make Dav's lunch which I love doing). But I forget that in reality, I'm awake from 5am..or 6 if I'm lucky. Click on the videos. One is Tes more or less cooing with a sprinkle of screaming. The other is of her delight in howling/screaming. And that's just when the sun is coming up (the videos are taken from me in bed with the curtain showing some light, but it's still
dark!) She'll do that...and I'll stay put in bed, patting her if she's cool with that, or otherwise put her on my tummy pretending I'm playing with her when I'm still "trying" to sleep.

She'll take her "morning" nap around 7 or 8, when I get up to shower and start my day.

I love those morning times though. She's fresh and smiley. Not a hint of crying (the screaming is clearly a fun activity for her).

Some may ask, "well, why not put her to bed later so she wakes up later?" Well, she just conks out around 7 or so. Can't do much about that for the moment.

Honestly, since I'm not working yet, I don't mind a bit. It's just my memory.

But what's ironically REALLY hard is that I'm meeting a ton of new people now. I've always been horrible at remembering names. But now, I'm meeting new moms AND their cute babies. They all have names!! It's getting real embarrassing as some of the mommy groups overlap so I meet the same people over and over. They remember my name and even Tesla's. But I'm always stumbling...Quel horreur!!

I'm looking into getting a new phone. I've talked to several moms and there are certain "mommy friendly" phones in the sense they make it easy to note shopping lists, update calendars, etc. When I get my next phone, it will have to be moblog friendly AND mommy friendly.