Mommy goes to work

Yep, today is the day, the first day back at work. People asked me how I felt as the day approached. I had both excitement and sorrow. I love working at Six Apart, but I also love being with Tesla. I think the most difficult is feeling the passing of time that I felt so acutely just after Tesla was born. She's growing up and I can't stop it. She's ready for new caretakers and new experiences. If I ever go back to work, now is the right time.

But I did cry a bit last night. Just mourning the end of this blissful maternity leave, mourning the complete babyness of Tesla.

I am very grateful that Tesla's grandmother Marie will be taking care of her. I'm sure Tesla is fine today, happy being cared by such a loving grandmother who sings and plays with her. I miss Tes for sure, but now that I'm in the office, already being updated about various issues, I think I'll be fine too. And the pleasure of running home to hold Tesla will be soooooo sweet!