A moment to note

I'm behind in blogging. I have tons of pics and videos from the weekend. Some from the 60+ attendees at the Callaghan Scottish family Christmas gathering on Saturday where Tesla loved running around with her cousins who are toddlers too. She also took advantage of leaving Dav and me to explore on her own - which we let her since it was all family and as safe as safe can be. Then on Sunday, we had dinner at our friends' who just had their 2nd son. Their first, Kai, is a rambunctious 4 year old who played with Tesla - fed her apple sauce and rough-housed her with pillows - and we were quite pleased at how she held her ground although at times I think it was a bit much for her size.

But I got sucked into lounging with Dav tonight. I thought I'd put off posting because I was enjoying hanging with my husband, just the 2 of us as Tesla snoozed.

Then, I went to the bathroom. And I got my period.

To put this into perspective, I have not had my period for 27 months.

It was a very nice break from the monthly hassle. And I appreciated that break. But, I've had signs that it was coming. Plus, I only breast feed Tesla maybe 2 days a week only when I want her to go back to bed when it is 5am and she wakes up. She pretty much has stopped asking for it by herself. So I knew my period was around the corner.

Nevertheless, seeing my period, was...uh...actually very emotional for me.

I started crying and came out to Dav for comfort. I explained that although I see Tesla grow and her need for me has definitely changed from physical to emotional, for ME to have the definite signal from my body that it is done with giving Tesla sustenance, and is ready to be back to normal, was rather a shock. I had a mourning. It felt sad in a let-going way that my body was telling me, "Your baby is fine now. She will continue to need you, but has exited her first stage from you."

I'm happy (I have been eager to completely get my body back), but touched also at how significant this feels. Thank you, body, for giving us Tesla!

Hence this post.