Internally...

Every once in a while I check what search words bring folks to Kokochi. I used to keep a list as some were hilarious and quite out of context. But recently, I'm happy if I get a few pics up of Tesla, let alone sift through stats. I did check today though. And most times, new folks come to Kokochi from a search on words linked to my "old life" as in when we went out to the weird and quirky things that San Francisco offers. Or saw amazing things and I posted about them. In contrast, lately - as in the last 2 years - it's really all about Tesla, which isn't what folks are looking for.

Kokochi has become my personal memory book that just happens to be public out of old habit. Honestly, the biggest impetus to blogging nowadays is the feeling I get when I go back into archives for one reason or another, and have this wonderful chronicle of Tesla. It's such a treasure, so I continue.

I've always been the kind to think, "If there were a fire, I'd grab my cats and photos." Now, I don't have to worry about photos since they're online. Tesla will be able to run soon in such an emergency, so I just need to focus on my cats :)

Anyway, this got me thinking about sharing about other internal stuff on my mind vs. Tesla's daily activities. So here's a short-list:

• Been feeling again how little creative & thinking time I have, and wondering what the consequences are. I'm happy, but what part of myself am I losing?
• Going to Tokyo for business in a few weeks, and bringing Tesla again (her 4th time). Each time is completely different due to her age, and this one will be the toughest, I think (thank goodness Rachel is joining me to help on the plane). However, it will also be the most rewarding because she can respond to things. The main goal is have Tesla remember my mom who will fly over in August to care for Tesla when we go to Burning Man without Tesla. That will be the first time ever that both of us will be away from Tesla for more than a night.
• My cousin is getting married, and I really want to attend. But it's in Erie, PN, and our schedule dictates that we'd have to travel like mad on a Friday, have fun on Saturday, and travel again on Sunday. With a toddler. Now I know what that means, and I'm very sad to admit attending might not be the best decision.
• Tesla will be 2 on July 5th. But mama will be at a spa with her 3 other high school girlfriends. Us all have not been all together without men by our side since high school, and this is so overdue! I know next year's b-day will be big because Tesla will be able to express what she wants, so this year, I'm going to have a small lunch for her a few weeks early so I can have my weekend with my girlfriends. So excited!! And Tesla won't know the difference [although she can read about it here later on Kokochi, heh].
• I have a website I really want to start. I want to post about neat stuff on the Japanese internet. This site would not be about me at all. It's something I'm excited about because it would force me to regularly explore a branch of the internet I don't spend time on that is exploding with cool stuff. However, "cool" does not mean the geek, manga, "this is so weird" sorta stuff that seems to be what usually gets introduced on the English internet sites. I want to focus on the everyday, sometimes female, design/home sorta stuff....because I want to :) I'm hoping this will be my creative outlet. However, I've been waiting for the time to dig in, and it just isn't going to happen, so I'm slowly facing that I will have to do it even though I have a million other things on my plate.
• I don't blog about my cats anymore, and that saddens me. For the same reason I blog about Tesla, I need to re-include my cats. I love them.
• 88 days until the burn. This year will be like our honeymoon!