September 2008 Archives
I had to come home early from work today because Karla called that Tesla threw up. I'm glad I did because Tesla continued to be sick. She threw up in the car all over herself coming home, then later twice on both of us and the sofa while we chilled in the living room (each time with a full clean-up and change in between).
Now she's laying in her favorite spot, in our bed. I keep checking in to see if she's fallen asleep, but she's just lying there half dozing, but half not. Just now, I leaned over, caressed her hair, cuddled blankie around her, gave her kisses, and whispered, "I love you" to which I heard a faint whisper back, "I wuv u..."
Not that I truly cared, but now it's totally OK that she barfed all over me...: )
Last night we went to Sofia's for dinner, and when we arrived, she had on a cute ballet dancer outfit. She kindly brought out a pink tutu for Tesla that matched her pajamas. So until bedtime, we put on classical music and the gals danced around.
At times, Tesla looks like she's doing capoeira, but it's her version of elegantly raising her legs while dancing.
Daddy joined later, obliging Sofia by wearing her tiny white butterfly wings. Daddy also did a puppet play with Fia's toys. When bedtime rolled around, Tesla was more than ready; she actually walked up the stairs to her regular bed at Fia's all by herself!
Jeremy plays a lot with Tesla, and I got to catch T's face when they were playing a game where he made faces, and she copied.
The graffiti was part of a marketing event for new spray paint called Montana, and although it was marketing, I thought it was smart because they were supporting the artists, giving art to the event, and educating people about their product but also about graffiti.
They had a table where Mel Waters was doing renditions of people's names. I went by several times, wanting one for Tesla, but there was a line so I passed. Then later in the afternoon, I found no one. Dav and I were on our way to Amon Tobin, but I couldn't resist, so I told Dav I'd meet him later...and I'm glad I did. It was cool seeing Mel Waters take his time to figure out how to do Tesla's name (on canvas), and I chatted with one of the company people who had spent time in Japan (she recognized a character I have dangling from my phone that only exists in Japan so to know it, you have to have been there). And the final rendition was worth it. I'm going to frame it for T!
More catch-up from when my mom was here:
We went to Monterey with mom and Elida. Rachel and Cesar were going to come, but Rachel woke up sick that morning. Our plan was to check out the aquarium, then drive along the coast a bit to enjoy the beauty. In reality, we spend all our time at the acquarium, and since I had scheduled a gift massage at Kabuki for my mom, we had to leave to make it back in time. I was pretty bummed I didn't get to show my mom the coast as she wanted. Plus, it was too much driving for one day, especially for Tesla. We should have spent the night.
This is a catch-up post about an evening when Rachel came over to cook rhubarb pie for my mom. Back when she came with me to Tokyo, my mom had mentioned how much she missed rhubarb, so Rachel kindly promised to freeze some so they could make a pie together since my mom also wanted to learn how to cook rhubard. So while my mom was here, Rachel came over (meaning, she brought ingredients and cookware all the way over from Oakland), and first at Michelle's house since I was still at work, she started the pie crust. Later, they moved to our house and baked the pie, cooked Thai shrimp that Elaine and everyone else wanted to learn how to cook, and my mom contributed some Japanese dishes too. We had Elida, Elaine, Manisha join in addition to Rachel, Michelle, me and my mom. Was totally a gal night!
I was very happy that my mom got to experience hanging with my special friends. As each person left - it being a weekday night - the group slowly got smaller and the discussions more intimate. Michelle was able to stay til the end, and my mom shared a lot of our family background. I'm glad M got to hear that too!
Today, for the first time, at Karla's, Tesla peed in the potty!
"Potty Power" refers to a dvd Tesla got into that is about toddlers using the potty. I recommend it. She's not super interested in it now that she's seen it so many times, but she knew it was for her as in her story and not a show for us, and it gave us vocabulary to talk about the potty with her. For example, we congratulated her today saying, "you got potty power?" and she understood what we meant.
Dav sent this link to me and a bunch of friends tonight. There was no explanation in his email so I clicked, and diligently watched.
I didn't get it. I watched in earnest, and as much as I admired the parents and their belief in their baby, I didn't get the story. Their baby was fine 2 years later. Who cares about delays as long as the baby is OK and does what is in their own time. Right???
So I emailed about that...to everyone.
Then Dav let me know it was a joke. Then Jeremy kindly emailed the same.
And as much as I want to laugh at myself, it made me sad. I just don't get things...A LOT of the time here. I don't get sarcasm AT ALL. It will probably never make sense to me. It's probably the most opposite behavior to have vis-a-vis Japan.And I miss the majority of pop-culture references to boot so I'm quite doomed.
Thus tonight, I tumbled in the, "I don't really belong here" feeling because I don't 100%. Yeah, I love a lot here, and yeah many people aren't "American" here too. It's still important that in my reality, I don't feel 100% because there is so much I miss...and so much I don't even know I'm missing. I know I wouldn't feel 100% in Japan either because I look "half" and have different values, but at least I can navigate and have a sense of what's going on.
I have these delicate moments from time to time. I think this hit me because my mom was here. And I miss her now that she went back to Japan, just yesterday. I miss having a person who understood, and brought out the parts of me that I don't get to be normally when here (thus hanging with my high school friends is so precious and necessary). I miss having someone who also didn't get things. I miss having someone who knew without having to say anything.
Anyway, no conclusion to the story. Just a sharing of a moment.
p.s. Now that I've typed up this post, I realize how off I can be. I knew that tiny wheelchair for the baby was strange. Never seen it, and why not just use a stroller? But my brain was so into taking word for word from the daddy. I have a friend, SASSY, who will be my trainer in sarcasm. She is the master and I just realized how much I need her to teach me!
Picture is thanks to Mika.
[no worries...this is a good story...]
Everyday, when I get home from work, the usual routine is: put away the groceries I bought, check mail, feed the kitties their well-deserved wet food, make T's dinner, feed her, begin our dinner, give T a bath, and either eat while T is awake or put her to bed so we get an adult dinner. In general, busy...until 8pm
Today, however, Wakame didn't come out when I came home. Both Kats and Waka sleep all day in one closet or another, and come out once I'm home. I knew pretty quickly that something was weird, but as mentioned above, there's a lot to do until 8pm. I imagined she didn't hear me, or maybe was stuck somewhere. I've had many a nights worrying about my kitties only to have all be fine, so I didn't react. I fed T. We put her to bed. We had dinner. Then I got worried. Worried enough that I voiced to Dav that I'd be surprised if it were Waka who left us before Kats since he has a heart murmur. I know cats are known to go off on their own when that time comes. Dav scoffed and told me to search with a flash light. So I did.
I looked everywhere...and know for sure that if I call, she'll come out or at least meow. I had called from our door to the hallway that leads to the building entrance and garage, but nothing. At the very last of my search, I got my shoes on and went to the garage. Sure enough, as soon as I called, "Waaakaaa," she meowed. She somehow got herself down to the garage but was too timid to make it back up until I was there with her. She used to be so much more independent, but now that we're in this apartment, she's super fearful. So she was stuck.
The one nice thing about feeling that loss and then finding her is getting to hug her and give her treats that make her happy. Even Dav said to her, "so you had an adventure, eh?" while he pet her. Tonight, we shall cuddle!
And from 2007...Allow me to add some wonderful Tesla pictures since she had style last year, and we sorely missed her this year. I want to include her in my 08 updates.
So yeah...I missed Tesla a lot this year! Didn't matter what I enjoyed wearing this year...next year I'm gonna make matching outfits! And that means for you too, Dav. Triple matching!!
Here are snippets of our RV with dome...before the rest of our camp fully showed up. By the end, the space was pretty packed. Our group had 6 RVs all together! We all used to be tents only...
When Douglas came to visit us, he brought our old Campalicious sign/banner that he so kindly had stored for a few years. We stuck it on our windshield. We also covered one side of the windows with tinfoil to reflect the heat...very effective!
We didn't use our dome the past 2 years since it was more hassle when we had so much baby stuff to bring. So it was nice to hang out in it again, with the hammock, chairs and a table. Dav decided to sell the dome after this year, however, and get a better square structure that we can put against the RV to make a continuous shelter (but low and behold, the day we got back, Dav left the dome polls in front of our garage while we went to get lunch...and someone stole them!!)
Loved these bikes...I decorated my bike my first year with some flowers and what not. Ever since, nada. This year I added a big pink alien on my seat out of necessity because my butt seriously ached after 6 hours of Rangering on a bike. That alien used to be deco for our dome but now it's my seat. Never bothered much with my bike, but that majestic lion inspired me...and with T joining next year, I'm thinking of a family 3-some theme for our bikes....
Next is a breakfast one morning. Kitten knocked on our RV door one morning saying she craved Japanese so we started talking. I didn't have much Japanese ingredients in the RV, but low and behold, our Irish photographer friend had furikake and rice. Kitten had pickled cucumbers, I had salmon. Itadakimasu...Best playa Japanese breakfast!
Scene at camp...dressing up as I please for the afternoon.
2nd pic is another camp's kitchen cooler storage area. They kicked-ass. (And I love checking out how kick-ass camps organize and accomplish what they do.) This was the Dust City Diner lingerie party we went to. Full bar...and an exquisite layout of beautiful nibbles. Our beloved Douglas - who was the only person to witness our wedding and took our treasured pictures for us - was with the Diner camp this year. Every night, they went out on the playa with their diner and served grilled cheese and drinks. I missed them out there, but got to see the amazing diner. I have to say, Douglas is totally a natural burner, and since I met him as a newbie, it's great fun to see him fully having fun. He stopped by our camp to say hi, in short cut-off jeans and subtle blue eye-shadow. He arrived via an art-car that stopped while he caught up with us even though the car was full of riders swealting in the heat. I want more time with Douglas...he'll be around though, I know.
Finally...I feel I can update Kokochi about BM 08. I think this year is probably the most difficult to summarize. The main reason was we didn't have Tesla with us. That was the hardest. When people asked, "so how was BM this year?" I didn't have the simple, "It was great!" reply. We missed her.
Also, simply put, we have a 2 year old. Even though she wasn't with us, preparing for BM and the clean-up post Burning Man was quite a lot of work in addition to our daily life with our wonderful, energetic 2 year old. It took every ounce of energy I had to trudge through all we had to do along with daily life with T and work. So blogging was low on my priority...now life is slowly returning to normal. Whew.
So...to share BM08...
First is my last picture of Tesla before we hit the road. We actually were ready around noon on Friday (we had early arrival tickets), but Tesla was napping. So Dav and I decided to take the RV to pick up a friend, then head back home to say bye once she was awake. Now, I can't believe I was able to leave my baby knowing I had a week plus ahead of me without seeing her. I brought a bunch of pictures of her to have with me. Second pic is the first on the playa...although apprehensive, I was nevertheless happy to be "back home."
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Part of our complaints from the past few years was that BM was getting big and crowded very quickly in the week. We used to arrive on Sunday and enjoy seeing the city build. The initial days were precious because we met fellow burners who were about community and sharing...vs the end of the week when the city became filled with weekend partiers which changed the atmosphere. But since a few years ago, it seemed that even by Monday, the city was crowed with raging partiers...and frankly, we were disappointed but were distracted because we were at camp with our baby. This year BM was strict about early arrival. And since we were working as Rangers, we were able to get in early. Honestly, the early pre-opening days this year were the best. Things were slow, there was space, and it felt like the old days. Everyone was either working or building a theme camp. Everyone was super friendly and all about sharing. I celebrated the open space!
Dav calculating how much space we needed for our camp & friends: As early arrivals, we had to be "placed," but that meant going where we wanted to camp and making sure everyone around us was cool with the space we needed...and being blessed by the "placer." It was all about meeting everyone's needs. I liked that. We considered several spaces within a few blocks and everyone around us was extremely accommodating. We basically chose our spot based on great location, not too close to porta potties, and cool neighbors.
Second pic is Playa Information. No one there...yet!
From a much needed date night Dav and I had on Sunday, after Tesla went to bed, thanks to my mom being here. I've been very busy on many fronts since BM...a bit overwhelmed. I want to summarize BM and create a post, but am waiting until I have the time and space to do so...hopefully in the next few days. BM took a lot out of me!
hmmn: musings from the far east(erwood)
Big in Japan
Ed the Cat
Anil, the Nigritude Ultramarine
A Full Belly
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